Getting myself back.


Last night I coloured my hair. This isn’t a big deal to most people, I wouldn’t have been to me two years ago. That’s how long it’s been since I’ve done it.

Having a baby is truly life changing, no one is ever really able to prepare you for it.

I wouldn’t change my little girl for the world, I love and adore every tiny part of her. But what I do want to change is how I feel about myself.

I went out the other week to have cocktails with a friend, for the first time since before I was pregnant. And I was so nervous! Terrified even, which is crazy. Why was I so nervous about going out and just being me??

I’m out of practice I guess, I’ve been so down lately about my weight, I didn’t know what to wear and I didn’t want to go out and buy a new dress as I’m in the process of losing weight.

Before I got pregnant, I would have had a choice of lovely dresses to wear and a choice of eyelashes too!

I’ve decided I need to start paying more attention to myself, don’t get me wrong I look after myself, I never leave the house without mascara and I’ve always got clean hair. But it’s the other things, I have made a start by colouring my hair again last night which has made me feel so much better.

Now it’s operation “lose a stone” and after I’ve managed that, I’m going to treat myself to a new dress, maybe even shoes!

I can’t believe that I’m the only person to feel this way, I would love to read your comments if you feel you can relate. Xx


  1. Can totally relate! So important to be yourself. I feel like I’m just getting back to someone I recognise although I need a lot of work! I want to lose a stone too. Im Right there with you!

  2. I could have written this post, I’ve always been happy enough in my own skin but right now I don’t feel it at all. Becoming a parent has given me new confidence in some areas, but in others confidence has dropped like a stone. I wish I didn’t have to wait till I’ve lost the baby weight to feel confident again, it’s very sad that society makes us feel that our worth is measured by our looks!

  3. I can relate…
    Yes…We do need to make time for ourselves so we don’t lose touch with who we are!!
    Good luck with the weight loss!! xx

  4. I found the first couple of years really tough to be “me”. Heck, I am still finding it tough now but I guess partly because we re-located from Bournemouth to Bristol and have had SO MUCH go on, I just haven’t had the time (or confidence) to make friends or attend the Bristol bloggers social events.

    You know, I was just thinking the other day how desperately my hair needs dying. Xxx

  5. I still have no time to be me. i have no idea who me is! i have been a mummy for nearly 6.5 years.

    recently i have had evenings out. at a friends house normally. that was good.

    i always make sure my hair looks nice, normally washed and straightened. but rarely have time for makeup. i never wore much anyway.

    it’s hard to find yourself when you are elbow deep in nappies and monthly meal plans.

    However for me i am happy this way. it is what i have wanted my whole life.

    i hope you find ‘you’ and good luck with the weight loss.


  6. This is a post I reckon all mums can relate to. I have to say I have been lucky with my weight, however the idea of going out still freaks me out so much. The idea of getting dressed up to go out seems like it would be an endless task and I feel like I know longer really know who I am aside from Arthur’s mum!
    How did your hair turn out, are you happy with it? I haven’t done mine in two years either, I’m convincing myself that now it just looks dip dyed haha.
    Good luck with your weight loss xx

    • Thank you for making me feel more “normal” I love my hair thank you, it was only a slight colour change, hardly noticeable but it’s cheered me up no end. I’ve started a healthy eating plan this week and already feel better. X

  7. I know exactly how you feel Hun. Been feeling this way myself. I think we focus so much on our babies we loose ourselves. I have joined a swimming pool to get fit and started a healthy eating plan. I think that it’s a positive thing. Good luck Kelly xxx

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